I wish I could say I have been controlling my compulsion to drink but I haven't.  On a plus size I did join the gym.  Some days are better than others.  Right now I am not depressed but extremelly, extremelly anxious.  I don't know why, I just can never get my nerves to calm down.  There has been tension at work and when I feel stressed I go home and drink.

I keep making excuses for myself saying "I will stop after New Years".  "I will stop after this week." and now my latest "I will stop after my birthday"- which is Feb. 1.  What is my problem?