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On the wagon

unquietmind — 2008-03-22T10:03:46-05:00

I'm on antabuse now, which means I CANNOT drink any alcohol. It was my decsion to start taking it. I need to stop and try and be sober. I am not happy though. All I think about is drinking and...

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That lush

unquietmind — 2007-05-27T04:05:15-05:00

For the last week I have rarely drank. I had two beers yesterday spaced out between about 8 hours. I think it helps that I have been sick. I haven't felt like drinking and I am happy for that. I did...

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I drink alone

unquietmind — 2007-03-02T02:03:30-05:00

Why is everything so damn hard? Why can't I just get some willpower and stick with it? What is my problem? It's Friday night and it's raining basically a shitty, rainy night. Will I go to the...

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Feeling down today

unquietmind — 2007-02-21T01:02:32-05:00

I have nothing to be sad about- but I am feeling a lingering depression today. I am still drinking, why I don't know. I really have to just not buy beer or if I drink just in social situations. I have...

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Still here

unquietmind — 2007-01-22T03:01:38-05:00

I wish I could say I have been controlling my compulsion to drink but I haven't. On a plus size I did join the gym. Some days are better than others. Right now I am not depressed but extremelly,...

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Last Hurrah

unquietmind — 2006-12-26T07:12:28-05:00

I’ve been very very bad. It started at the second Christmas party. I drank few beers and haven’t stopped since. I guess I am fooling myself into thinking this is the last hurrah before New Year’s...

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Post Christmas party

unquietmind — 2006-12-13T10:12:37-05:00

I drank at the party. I had two and a half beers. I don’t regret it and I don’t feel shame- in fact I feel indifferent about the whole thing. It didn’t get me buzzed and it didn’t make me feel...

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Christmas party

unquietmind — 2006-12-13T03:12:38-05:00

This year I have two Christmas parties to attend. Tonight is the first one. I don't think I will be drinking. I have a cold so I don't imagine mixing cough medicine and alcohol is a good idea. ...

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5 days no alcohol

unquietmind — 2006-12-12T11:12:48-05:00

So I have gone five days without drinking. I suppose I would feel better if I didn't have a cold. I went to a meeting Sunday night and I will go to one tonight.

I have one of my Christmas parties...

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Another meeting

unquietmind — 2006-12-08T10:12:05-05:00

I went to another AA meeting last night. My closest friend went with me. I find it difficult to just speak up and talk. They say beginners should get involved and talk but what if you're...

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